Since childhood, we are always told what to be, what to do, what is right and wrong. But no one let us explore our life and find things our way…
We are so conditioned with so many rules, norms, sometimes we are mould into it, we flow with it without realizing that it’s not meant for us. This is not what we want to be. I know this because now I do realize what I actually wish to be, how I want my life to be but there are still gaps to fill in…
It takes ages or sometimes even a whole life and still we do not realize what is our purpose in life? And some people find it in their childhood or teenage years or even in the 20’s and live for it.
For me, I still don’t know…I mean… my life has been too unpredictable. If in my childhood someone would have told me I’ll be a writer, painter or even an illustrator, I’d laugh it out and would have never believed it.
Let alone a painter and an illustrator were next to impossible because I was horrible at drawing/painting during my school days. So it’s like things took place when it was meant to be. I surprised my own self.
The major goal of my life is to be a writer, a good story writer. Though I really don’t know when will that happen, when will I write my novel/novels and they do at least fairly good if not best in the market.
Painting came very naturally to me, I am not trained, have not been to learn to any classes. It just comes with the flow. I just watch any tutorial video or picture and recreate it. Though I am trying to create my own painting creations now. It will take some time.
Illustrations, I have worked really hard for it and still working towards it. I agree I am not yet good at it let alone perfect. I am still trying.
I am doing everything that interests me but sometimes I feel the main purpose of my life is still missing. Something within me is searching for something that even I still am unaware of what exactly is it looking for?
Maybe it’s just right before my eyes, but I can’t recognize it, maybe there is more to life only time will tell. But I wish to have a purpose that will fill me up with so much of inspiration that it will really fuel me up with zeal to accomplish it, live for it.
I know I want to be a writer, but I still have not figured out that story that fills me up with an inexplicable feeling to write it and see it published. I still don’t know what I wish to write… Like I feel lost.
I am really grateful for being multi-talented and I keep sending thanks above to my Almighty for blessing me with so many talents. But I still question myself…what is it that you are looking for?
Finding purpose in life is so important or else, one feel empty and lost.
I hope to find that purpose soon and live with it because I am tired of living a life I am not even happy with, I hope to find that thing that will give me a reason to push myself a little more, I hope to live my life differently than others. I don’t like this mundane life, like everyone I should live the same, I need something different… Something that makes me different than the crowd.
Have you found your purpose in life?